Random Invitation

random invitation to decenter and disarm

random invitation to declutter your existence

random invitation to shed your arrogance and poop your vanity

random invitation to see yourself as cute and pathetic

random invitation to center the land and enable it to dream through you

random invitation to develop stamina to deal with “shit”

random invitation to trust what is guiding the process without shedding responsibility

random invitation to face complicity in harm with integrity and without defensiveness

random invitation to embrace the whole of humanity (the good, the bad, the ugly and the broken) within yourself

Pluto retrograde, huh?

Take a breath.

Drink a coffee, or two, or three... walk around, go outside. Answer the phone now and then. Play with your bones. You get the idea. Generally speaking, stay alive.

𝅘𝅥𝅮 Ah, ah, ah, ahhhh
stayin' alive, stayin' alive
ah, ah, ahhhh 𝅘𝅥𝅮

(With apologies- that reference was for a friend ;P)

It's been a big day for me and now it has for you too, so I'll end this piece with a 'random invitation'. Like many of the concepts and memetic weaponry I've dropped into this post, it's spellcasting worth doing in this moment.

If you're gonna do something, do it right.

I don't know how it found its way to me and it has origins unknown (perhaps to inoculate its original author against narcissism) but it probably came to me through my friends in one of the interlinked "Uncolonising Support Groups" us White and White-passing folks are forming. In any case, the language of Decolonial Futures is evident in its composition.

I hope that it haunts you the reader as much as it has me.

I want to be super, super, crystal fucking clear to anybody reading this: I don't want to talk about Greg Cassel with you any further. I don't want mediation. I don't want reconnection. I don't want to fix our relationship with you. Anybody I want to talk with about Greg has already been called in to support me. I don't feel at all as though I'm holding on to feelings of wrongdoing or need for amends in this situation. If Greg needs to make amends, well I'm open to that someday but the boundary is that he needs to compost his narcissism and entitlement before engaging with me in any capacity.

My body is completely relaxed about these events other than needing to grind this note out and plant it in the irrevocably and harshly accountable space of a permanently etched ledger of our peers. I will keep Greg's future self accountable to his past and present dysfunction with whatever force is necessary, and I would perform the same act of love for anybody including my own goddamn mother. It's a hard lesson (and I am aware of that firsthand) but it can be one of life's most transformative experiences if you allow it to be. You choose your own experience, Greg. I am unattached to your choices in these matters.

I am not interested in controversy or gossip about these events. My intention in writing here is to clear the issue so that we can all move on and start discussing the real systemic issues and cultural patterns that undercut such specific interpersonal behaviours. My request to those reading is not to reduce the conversation to an argument between two White folks.

If you want to talk about these issues, then I implore you to remain in integrity and lead with a discussion of structural racism, conservative heteronormative values, systemic violence, the appropriation of Indigenous knowledge and the complete and total absence of accountability in Permaculture, 'Regen' and 'ReFi' spheres of influence.

Greg and my conflict is not the issue here.

It is by my assessment actually a fourth order conflict first sparked by Regen Foundation's appallingly inappropriate and toxic treatment of non-White participants who challenge its static dominant culture.

I will say it 'in Australian', because I am one and I'm leaning into it: enough fucking talking about White cunts and their reputational capital and their sensitivities and these charades of bravado and immature identity politics. Take the spotlight off us assholes and put the spotlight back on racism in ReFi where it fucking belongs.